Fading into the background

I really just want to fade away, and wish not wait another day

i really just want the silence and calm, and wish not alarm anyone

I really just want to fade away, into the silence, into the grey

Come winter, let me reflect with pen in hand, lost in words

Come spring, place me in the yard, among the flowers and the birds

Come summer, plop me in the forest, and I'll hike among the trees

Come fall, I'll traipse among the land, and frolic in the leaves

I really just want to fade away, and wish not wait another day

i really just want the silence and calm, and wish not alarm anyone

I really just want to fade away, into the silence, into the grey

I wish no glory, I wish no fame

I need not bear a known name

The race to the top ends in shame

The heart turns weak, the mind, lame

The top, will soon find you on the bottom

I dream in fear, but my mind deletes the tapes

I scream out loud but no sound escapes

I'm dying inside to fill in the gapes

But each day, I rise, awake and reshape

I really just want to fade away, and wish not wait another day

i really just want the silence and calm, and wish not alarm anyone

I really just want to fade away, into the silence, into the grey

Carreen

2018/11/25

1:44 p.m.